As Charlie Sheen would say, “Winning”!!!

I had regained about 15 pounds back by January 1st this year.  I made a decision then,  to work hard at working out 6 days a week (aerobically) and get back to my lowest weight I reached while in the Wildcats.  I am proud of myself for following through and accomplishing those goals! This morning, I actually reached 205, the lowest I got while being a Buddyslimmer!  I am excited about really being ready to get to onederland.

My husband was hospitalized with irregular heart rhythms on Friday, and they did some tests, and decided he needed an angiogram.  It was to be scheduled tomorrow at the hospital.  Last night, he got scared, and left the hospital at 2:20 am, and walked 8 miles home.  He was on all kinds of heart meds, and blood thinners.  This morning about 8 am, my husband opened the gate and came into our front yard.  I was quite shocked!  I figured he bailed and then got a ride.  I was amazed he walked all that way.  Luckily, he’s still alive, and still cantankerous as ever.  Tomorrow, he’s going back to the dr and getting admitted into a better hospital, closer to us.  I hope everything goes well!

I am my own worst enemy!!!

Hello Buddies!! I just went through one of the lowest times in my life. Things were bad financially, and we nearly lost our home, and some other things happened to cause me to just want to drop out of life. I pushed everyone away, and stopped exercising, and ate whatever I wanted, hoping I would just die. It was horrible!!! I gained 20 pounds during the past 5 months of severe depression. I quit all of the forums, and left the Heartbreakin’ Rockstars and joined Wildcats, because I felt like I was letting everyone down. I felt so badly and ashamed that this was all happening to me, and with the weight gain on top of it, it made it even worse. I know I have offended people for quitting the HBR, and I apologize. It had nothing to do with anyone at all, but me and my feelings about myself. I have lost what I thought were good friends over this, and it had nothing to do with them, I think they are still great! I felt like a piece of junk and started doubting my own credibility and doubting my abilities to lose weight, and be successful. I have apologized but still these people don’t want to be friends anymore. I am really sorry for the misunderstanding. I am still involved with many of my buddyslimmer friends and we are doing our challenges and I hope that 2011 is a successful year for me and for all of you!!! Don’t ever give up your dreams, and hopefully if you are ever this depressed as I was, you will get help so you don’t have to suffer as I have. In just 5 months of bad behaviors, I really did a lot to undermine the daily hard work and effort of 2 years. It’s not worth it. I learned a lot about myself during those 5 months, and I hope I never go thru anything like that again. Best of luck everyone!!! Let’s do this and make 2011 the year that the skinny comes out again!!!!!

Fans of Buddyslim

Hi everyone!!  We just wanted to let everyone know that we have a group in facebook now called “Fans of Buddyslim”.  If you have a facebook account, we welcome you to join us.  This is not to replace buddyslim, just to get us all together via facebook.  So, come and add us.  We’d love to have you!!

I am not a quitter!!!

     Why do people leave Buddyslim?  I am sure each has their own reasons.  I have been tempted to leave myself a few times.  I was angry at myself for staying at the same weight.  I have wanted to leave because I have gained weight and I felt like a downer to my team.  I wanted to leave before because I was getting too honest and scaring myself.  But, I stayed.  I have been in Buddyslim for over 2 years now.  I sure thought I would be at my goal weight by now, but I am not, and I have not even reached onederland yet….but I will. 

     I am sad because I think of the people I have met in the 2 plus years I have been on BS.  I have met people whom have lost significant amounts of weight.  I haven’t seen them latlely, but I do hope that they are still at their goals.  I have been buddies with people very excited about losing their first pounds, and then suddenly they are gone.  There are very, very few people who have been here since I started.  It’s very sad to me to get close to a buddy and then they stop coming on, and then I have lost a friend.  Maybe I am too sensitive.  But it bothers me.  I put a lot of time and effort into getting to know you!!! 

     I feel I make a commitment to my team to participate and show up.  It’s my duty.  I love my team and my teammates!!  I think part of being a good buddy is to be committed to take part in your weightloss and not to give up on yourself.  We all have bad days, and we all gain weight, and we all lose weight.  It’s ok.  You are not unique.  Don’t quit because you can’t get past your plateau, or quit because things are getting difficult, or now you have to exercise and you don’t want to.  You owe this to yourself!!!  We are here to help you and thusly to help ourselves.  By me reaching out to help others, it motivates me to work a little harder, to try a new workout, to eat better, and to be more accountable.  I am actually a little angry.  I see myself in those quitters.  If only I knew that quitting and not doing anything would lead to the diabetes I have today…..maybe I would not have quit so many times in the past! 

     I am proud of myself today, and for my buddies that are still here, not giving up.  Yeah, maybe we are not liking the scale right now, but we are not going to give up today!!  I am in it to win it, and by God, I plan to be on buddyslim a long, long time!!!  Thank you everyone for your particpation in keeping buddyslim alive for me and I thank you all for not giving up!!  We will do this!!!  Be it 5 years, I am going to reach my goals!!!!

When everything feels so useless, take it from me. DON’T GIVE UP—-EVER!!!!!!!

I projected I would have been to onederland by now.  I even projected I would be at my goal weight by now.  It just didn’t happen that way.  It’s very frustrating when you have this timeline and you think it’s going to go this way, and NO, it’s going to go another way.  No matter how hard you try, how little or how much you eat, the scale isn’t budging.  I added extra steps, added more resistance, drank more water….nothing worked.  I got deeply depressed.  So, what happens?  I gained back 8 pounds.  Sure, I work harder and stay the same but I can sure gain weight effortlessly!  I wanted to just say, “I quit!  This is as good as I can get”!  I really wanted to!  I wanted to drop out of the Wildcats because I felt like I was a horrible teammate because everyone else is losing weight and setting new mini goals.  Here I am, gaining weight.  I started feeling like a failure. 

I thought about how many people come and go here.  They start out ready to go.  They work hard, exercise, eat right until it gets hard then they bail.  I could do that too I kept telling myself.  No one will care…..but someone did.  That person was me.  I thought about why I couldn’t quit.  I am a type 2 diabetic, and to quit could mean suicide for me.  To quit could mean my heart condition would get worse.  To quit would mean my blood pressure would spike up again.  To quit would mean my cholesterol would not finally be normal anymore, it would go up again.  To quit would mean that I would lose the muscle tone I have only begun to start seeing the definition of.  To quit would mean I wouldn’t have anymore buddies.  To quit would mean I would regain all of those pounds I worked my butt off for to lose!  But the most important reason to me was I thought if I quit it would mean I would eventually have to go back on diabetic meds again, and not taking those pills had given me the most satisfaction to date.  So, still feeling like quitting, I got back up, pretended I wanted to be here, got more involved in my  forums, and did not stop exercising.  I brought my body (as they say) and my mind followed.  Before long, I was wanting to do this, wanting to exercise, wanting to get better, wanting more and feeling I deserved more.

Today, I finally made my mini goal of 210, and if I had given up last month as I wanted to, I would not have made that goal!  We all have those slow days, weeks, months, or even years.  The point of the matter is that no matter what, don’t give up!  Never ever!  You are worth it!  Believe it!

Battling not wanting to exercise and found this:

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When You Just Don’t Feel Like Exercising

Psych yourself up to get your butt moving when your motivation to work out is low.

By Martica Heaner, Ph.D., M.A., M.Ed., for MSN Health & Fitness

Martica

Q: How can I wrap my brain around the motivation to exercise? I know it’s important to do, but I never have the urge to do it and even if I try to do it anyway, I have a hard time fitting it in.

A: People who work out are as busy as people who don’t. The difference is that some way, somehow, they make themselves exercise—even when it’s the last thing they feel like doing. Sports psychologists, behavioral nutritionists and exercise physiologists have spent years trying to pinpoint what motivates regular exercisers in the hopes of using that information to spark the less motivated.

There’s no easy answer.

Some research points to a possible genetic component connected to the tendency to be active. Put a group of mice in a cage with an exercise wheel and some will jump right on, others do so sparingly. Likewise, some people literally can’t wait to get home from work and throw on their exercise gear and go out for a run or hurry to their favorite exercise class. But others can’t think of anything less appealing.
Let’s face it: You can rationalize your way out of doing anything. You can always find an excuse for why you don’t like an activity or why it’s not right for you, or why there are a zillion other things you could—or should—be doing. But when it comes right down to it,there is absolutely no acceptable excuse not to fit some daily physical activity into your life. Even if you already have illness or physical limitations, you still need to figure out what you can do and how to make yourself do it.

And you can’t afford to put it off, either. The more you avoid exercise, the more negative repercussions you face. Not only are you at higher risk of many diseases (or at risk of exacerbating illnesses you already have), you’re likely to have an earlier death. And in the shorter term, you’re likely to gain weight. Plus, you’re going to get flabby, feel less energetic, and become weaker. And this atrophy speeds up the older you get. So while you might not notice many deleterious effects of being inactive in your 20s, by the time you’re in your 50s or 60s it will make all the difference in how you look and feel. Want to be a 50-year-old who looks like an old fogey? Just continue not to exercise (and while you’re at it, eat badly, too). Or do you want to be one of those vibrant, active, inspirational 50-, 60-, or even 70-somethings? Well, you know what you need to do.

The question remains: How in the heck do you motivate yourself? There is no one perfect approach, you may need to have an arsenal of make-yourself-workout tactics to pull out when appropriate. Here are some ideas:

1. Give it 10 minutes.
This approach is surprisingly effective. If you can simply lace up your sneakers and get that patooty out the door, that’s 90 percent of the battle. Chances are you’ll get into the groove once you get started. Very few people quit once they are actually moving, but lots of folks never even make it to a genuine workout moment, despite their best intentions.

So, if you need to bribe yourself by committing to a mere 10 minutes only of walking or hopping on the cardio machine, then do that. Chances are, once you’re moving, you’ll keep on and extend the workout. But even if you did stop cold at 10 minutes, you will have still achieved something—climbed out of your rut. Plus, even a daily 10 minutes adds up to more than an hour a week of exercise that you might have otherwise missed.

2. Repeat  the reasons why you want to work out like a mantra.

Are you hoping to look better for a college reunion or wedding? Or are you wanting to look in the mirror and feel better about what you see? Are you wanting to have more energy to play with your kids or grandkids? Whatever it is that you know you can get from regular exercise, you need to wield that expectation like a weapon to bat away your urge to plop on the couch. Visualize what it is you want and how you will feel. Let that vision push you out the door, or onto an exercise machine.

3. Find an activity you like or a way to enjoy something you don’t.

Yes, it’s true: Cardio machines are boring as hell. But that’s what iPods and TVs are for. Cardio machines are tedious, but they are also a tool, and if you re-jig your perspective you might appreciate the multi-tasking ability you can take advantage of. For example, if you want to learn a language, load your iPod with some French or Spanish lessons and commit to listening three times a week while walking on the treadmill. Or, rather than laze on the sofa and read, load up an iBook and listen as you sweat. If you are a Lifetime movie fan or a political news junkie, what better way to waste all those viewing hours than by pedaling your way through them?

But gym machines are far from your only option.

Group fitness classes are designed to motivate you. That’s what an instructor is for. So promise yourself to try every single type of class on the schedule of your local club until you hit upon one that makes you want to go back. It could be sports conditioning or tap dance or step aerobics or Spinning. Better, commit to attending two different classes of each type, taught by different instructors. Some teachers have a personality that will inspire you. And some teachers have such excellent teaching skills  that they can present an aerobics routine in a way that has you empowered and actually doing the moves, rather than tripping your way through them. (By the way, if you feel like a klutz in a class, that’s the sign of a bad teacher; one who’s showing off their own moves, but not bothering to break them down into achievable steps that can be performed by non-pros.)

The gym might not even be your scene. Check out parks for group sports lessons like tennis or volleyball. Or check out dance and/or martial arts studios. Somewhere there’s bound to be an activity that clicks for you.

Do you have a fitness or weight-loss question for Martica? Send e-mail to experts@microsoft.com. Please include Ask Martica in the subject line. Each of our experts responds to one question each week and the responses are posted on Mondays on MSN Health. We regret that we cannot provide a personalized response to every submission.
Martica Heaner, Ph.D., M.A., M.Ed., is a Manhattan-based exercise physiologist and nutritionist, and an award-winning fitness instructor and health writer. She has a Ph.D. in behavioral nutrition and physical activity from Columbia University, and is also a NASM-certified personal trainer. She has written hundreds of articles for publications such as Self , Health , Prevention , The New York Times and others. Martica is the author of eight books, including her latest, Cross-Training for Dummies. (Read her full bio.)

My Heart Valves are Leaking???!!!

So, today I go see my cardiologist because they want to do a cardiolite stress test and I have been very afraid and thought going in and seeing the dr would alleviate some fears.  I haven’t seen him for awhile and I was very excited to note that I have lost 28 pounds since I saw him last.  The last time I had seen him I came in for a cardio ultrasound test but I hadn’t gotten the results so thought I’d get them too at this appointment. 

So, I am all smiles and he drops a bomb on me.  He says, “Your ultrasound has shown that your heart valves are leaking fluid”.  I have been feeling these fluttery feelings on the left side of my chest and thought it was gas.  So, I tell him about it and he tells me that’s what he’s talking about and I feel this when my valves are malfunctioning.  He says it can be remedied by weightloss.  I told him I have lost 28 pounds since the last time he saw me and he tells me that I still have a long way to go.  I agreed a long way!  But, I was feeling very scared!  I told him how scared I was about everything and the upcoming test.  He was good at reassuring me.  He says that he already knows I have this problem which can be corrected, the other test will show if there’s any damage and if anything further needs to be done but he’s going to put me on some meds after the test is done.  I take a lot of meds already for diabetes and high cholesterol.  My blood pressure was good tho, thank God or I would be on that too.

So, next week I go in for a Peripheal Arterial Test which will be an ultrasound of my lower extremeties, and then the 17th I have the stress test.  I am worried about the results but the dr convinced me it’s better to know ahead of time than to suffer a heart attack, but it’s pretty stressful!  I feel so angry that I let myself get this way and gain all this weight and that all of my illnesses are the result of my obesity.  I am hypersensitive to the fluttery feelings now and I seem to notice it all the time now which is adding to my stress.  And it seems to be taking me forever to lose weight these days and it’s mandatory that I do!

For those of you who do not know what a cardiolite stress test is, it is a heart test where they will give me an IV of some nuclear substance and then I will walk on a treadmill and then they take pictures of my heart.  Then, a few hours later, I come back and get more nuclear stuff and I will lay down.  It’s going to look at the blood flow and valves and all that stuff.  I am trying not to act like this is a big deal so I don’t have a complete panic attack when I go in.   But, I am pretty scared! 

What gift does my husband get for me to show his love for me??????

DONUTS!!!!!!   I am sound to sleep and am awakened by hearing a sound of rustling papersack.  “Wake up Honey, I got your favorite donut….cinnamon roll”.  Then he starts telling me how fresh and delicious it is because it’s  6:30 am and they were just made.  I look up and there he is in our bed with a pink box of a dozen donuts.  He’s eating them and he seems to be in heaven.  So, I open my baggie, and there’s not just 1 cinnamon roll, my husband loves me so much he brought me 2!  And they are big! 

I smell them and they do smell great!  So I think to myself, “Should I just eat these babies and start over tomorrow”?  Well, no.  I decided to let myself have a taste and that’s it.  That way I am not depriving myself.  I start to feel angry because he knows I am diabetic and that carbs and sugars will raise my blood glucose dangerously high.  I have told him time and time again that I can’t eat them.    Then I got to thinking, I have to realize that I am the only one in my home that has diabetes and it’s not fair to make my husband withhold from one of his favorite treats.  But, did he have to rub them in my face and wake me up with them?  No.  Hahaha, to get my revenge, I wrote all over the pink box, things like, “Death”, “Diabetic Coma”, “Stacey, do not eat these”, and I drew a big tombstone on the front which my husband got a chuckle out of.  I mean, my husband doesn’t bring me a lot of gifts so it’s hard not to be appreciative and it was a tough decision not to eat the donuts but I have to make my health more important than people’s feelings getting hurt.  I know he meant well.

Anyhow, while typing this, he came in and saw that I have started this blog.  Guess who’s in trouble now?

Eat Your Fruits and Veggies Challenge

Hi everyone.  Since Lyssa went MIA for the Hip Chicks Challenge a few of us have been keeping it going with no direction.  The list of rules are on the first page of the challenge that Lyssa wrote.  I really liked her ideas!  So, the challenge was a 90 day challenge and it will be over December 2.  I am going to be taking it over from here on out. 

To try and get some momentum going I am starting the fruits and veggie challenge for us starting today.  The goal is just to try and eat 5 - 7 servings of fruits and veggies and check in with us how you are doing.  It will go until next Friday.  I think veggies are important to every dieter as the fiber is great, they fill you up, they are loaded with vitamins, and you can eat a lot of them for little calories.  I am hoping to implement this into my diet to help me with my plateau and then I got the idea to do it for the group. 

Come join the HipChicks under Weightloss Forum.  The more the merrier!!!

Is anyone else here stressing out about the country’s economy???

One of my biggest triggers for eating everything in the house is fear of not having enough money.  It’s stressing me out to keep hearing about the stock market being so volatile, banks closing up, and then the government giving money to corporations to bail them out.  I know we are living paycheck to paycheck and buying healthy food is getting harder and harder to afford.  I coupon shop, buy the reduced meats, yogurt, and whatever else I can.  I am trying to add more produce but it’s so expensive!  I guess it’s good because we won’t be having so much food around for me to graze on, but it’s very scary!  My husband worries everyday that he will be laid off. 

My solution is to just take it one day at a time.  I do hope I can get a part time job in 2009 to assist with some of the bills around here, and that is a driving force that keeps me motivated to lose weight.  Every pound I lose helps my diabetes to get more under control, and I need that to return to work.  I go for walks every night and I am seeing more homes in my neighborhood being moved out of and more foreclosures.  It just gets to me and I feel sorry for these families.  It could be us as we have no savings.  So, I am just wondering how you are all handling this and not overeating comfort foods.  I am trying to not turn to food for this, and believe me the walks really help!  Thanks for listening.

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